I had a nice long thing written here, but then Firefox decided to be a total ass and crash, thereby deleting all my hard work. All my sadness and anger is depleted.
All I can manage to now is this though.
I’m leaving you. They already have. I’m the last to make this decision because I would not do this unless I absolutely had to. I’m not going to come back until you decide to change. I know it won’t happen though because you’re just that type of person. I hope you realize what you have done and the consequences that have come out of it. You’ve now lost the person who loved you and your closest friends. We had our times, and they were amazing, but they’re gone now.
It’s dark out, with street lamps lighting the road, giving it a sort of eerie yellow tint. A girl is dancing in the rain. The acid rain. She’s happy and twirling and has her hands out, and her dress is flowing out as she turns. She’s melting though. Holes are appearing in the white stained brown dress and you can see her skin starting to drip like candle wax. She’s slowly melting, with that smile on her face.
…It’s depressing. But I wish I could draw it out.
I can’t though haha. There’s just some things you know you have to be at a certain level to be able to achieve well enough. This…is one of them :l
So I was talking to one of my graduating friends, and you know what he said to me?
Senior year goes by fast. Like, really fast. You won’t even believe that you’re going to graduate. You’ll turn around and suddenly the leaves will be turning yellow and you’ll think “This is the last time I’m going to see this here.” Then there’ll be homecoming and exams, and you’ll start noticing the little things that you never really cared about before.
He also said that he’s really torn and happy about leaving his friends behind, but he knows it’s going to have to happen to some of them. You’ll drift away from some during senior year, but near the end of the year, it’ll come back somehow. Even those people you hated/were annoyed with, you’ll start talking to them again and reminisce about the past.
As for after graduation… well. He guessed who you were right off the bat. I don’t know if that means that I talk about you guys too much or if you’re the only ones I talk about LOL. Anyways, he said that if you weren’t antisocial [which you’re not sort of-ish?], you’ll make friends. But you don’t need friends ‘cause you’ll be too busy swathed with sheets of music to keep you company P:
Jkjk he’s just a jealous boy who wishes he could play like you haha.
I miss taking wushu. It was something I was pretty good at that I actually liked [yes, even the sweat and the pain was awesome in the end], I was a pretty quick learner too [there was a time where it was me, the little tiny asian, versus the big boys who were in yellow belt, but that was back at QO and I was like 8]. I miss it most when Hau Hau, Calvin, and Daulton taught me. Those were fun, and they were asses to us by beating us down to the ground, but it was for a good cause…sort of [Calvin’s just a sadistic ass sometimes though P:]. I also miss the time when Coach Pei and Zhang lao shi would look at me and say that I had a lot of potential and that I should go to the academy.
But that’s not happening anymore.
Maybe I’ll be able to go back second semester senior year. Hopefully I’ll have a job by then. I’ll go to frigging VA and not to Tim’s shitty-ass teaching at Wootton. Fuck the fact I’ll be the only old kid in the class. I had to quit RIGHT before my belt testing, so I was never able to get to orange and I was never able to surpass Charles, which I definitely would of in a few months if I kept going.
This was probably brought on ‘cause I was watching wushu vids on facebook. Before that someone in Quest Crew did a butterfly during their performance. And even before that I told Joey that learning wushu is pretty good for learning parkour too…
MOTHER. I CAN’T CONCENTRATE. Fuck you school, Fuck you Biology and Fuck you SATs.
Yeah, after we graduate, a lot of us are going to fall apart. Of course, we’ll all make promises to email/facebook/aim/msn each other and keep in touch, to have a lame but fun high school reunions, to get together during the summer or during breaks. But as it generally is, once college happens, we’ll see new people and befriend them, slowly leaving others behind. Sometimes it’ll be sad and you’ll miss them [who doesn’t?], but you gotta remember you still have your memories. Even if you don’t remember those memories, you still have that vague sense of what you used to have right?
Actually I don’t think I’m helping any hahaha. Hmm. [This is harddd. I’m no good at this lolol] Well, if we end up going to different colleges, which honestly, I think is pretty likely, you can count on the fact that I’m going to annoy the hell out of you :) And you’re gonna have to get a webcam, except the fact that we’re anti-social and aren’t talkative at all. so msn :D [it has no audio and it doesn’t glitch like everything else and it’s really convenient man] And I’ll always spam you with random shit too lol. Andddddd. By college I better have my license, so since you’re always busy, during breaks [there’s no fucking way I’d ever drive to wherever you’re gonna go during the school year, too expensive P:], I’ll camp out at your messy house like a hobo heehee. But now that just sounds creepy and weird —”
According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs, and a head with 2 faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.
I love how guys come up with clever ways to ask girls to prom.
One idea that I thought was so clever and cute:
After every class in school, a different person she sees in the hall or in class would give her a sheet/card.
Before Period 1, the girl recieves a sheet that has a big ? on it.
After Period 2, the sheet has a O
After Period 3, the sheet has an R
After Period 4 which is lunchtime, the guy goes up to the girl and asks if she has been recieving mysterious sheets/cards. Then, he hands her the final piece to the puzzle- a sheet with a P on it.
I also like the pizza idea where it spells out prom? in M&Ms like princess diaries and a pizza guy delivers it. It would be even more impressive if the girl actually ordered some pizza and it wasnt just some unexpected pizza delivery.
Patrick I wouldn’t grow after a week of watering, so I had to replace him with Patrick II :l It was really sad.
But yeah, gonna spend the entirety of tonight writing out a 3 week diary about the growth of my bebes & everything scientific relating to them.
AP Bio sucks. Don’t take it if you’re not genuinely interested or aren’t that smart DDX If you are both [such as I am], then the class will be kind of a bitch and really, insanely hard.
This is Day 1 of all nighter.
Wendesday night is dedicated to world reading/notes [‘cause I’m just that nice of a person and I can’t really like Kenneth [btw bitch you’ll never see this ‘cause you forgot about your stupid tumblr] fail the class either —”] & writing/making up my 4 english precises. Still not exactly sure what I’m supposed to do…
Thursday night is dedicated to studying world [quiz], math [quiz], Bio [TEST ON LIKE 6 CHAPTERS MOTHER FUCKER], and whatever other homework I have.
FML man. My teachers need to learn to not pile everything onto one day godamnit.