Runaway Parade

You only hate me because I’m not willing to listen to you anymore.

I had a nice long thing written here, but then Firefox decided to be a total ass and crash, thereby deleting all my hard work. All my sadness and anger is depleted.

All I can manage to now is this though.

I’m leaving you. They already have. I’m the last to make this decision because I would not do this unless I absolutely had to. I’m not going to come back until you decide to change. I know it won’t happen though because you’re just that type of person. I hope you realize what you have done and the consequences that have come out of it. You’ve now lost the person who loved you and your closest friends. We had our times, and they were amazing, but they’re gone now.

So this is goodbye.

Tomorrow will be difficult. There will be avoidance, there will be betrayal, there will be confusion, there will be anger, there will be hurt. What will the outcome be?

Oh yeah. I forgot.

School exists too.

Because I am the way I am, I’m lying.

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My life is fucked enough. Stop making it worse.

Not you. [That’s stupid.]

So I just got this image in my head.

It’s dark out, with street lamps lighting the road, giving it a sort of eerie yellow tint. A girl is dancing in the rain. The acid rain. She’s happy and twirling and has her hands out, and her dress is flowing out as she turns. She’s melting though. Holes are appearing in the white stained brown dress and you can see her skin starting to drip like candle wax. She’s slowly melting, with that smile on her face.

…It’s depressing. But I wish I could draw it out.

I can’t though haha. There’s just some things you know you have to be at a certain level to be able to achieve well enough. This…is one of them :l

But apparently there’s gonna be acid rain starting from now-ish until the 29th? So… try not to make too much contact with the rain outside hahaha.

TIME TO FIND SOME RAINBOOTS. :D

[I’ve always wanted them so I could jump in puddles hahahaha]

It’s true. And it’s gross.

Helen and her friend stuck two in a cup. and now they’re like, 3 times the size they originally were.

I’d take a picture and compare the differences, but a) gummy bear fell apart when I tried chopsticking it out, and b) no moar gummy bears P:

So I was talking to one of my graduating friends, and you know what he said to me?

Senior year goes by fast. Like, really fast. You won’t even believe that you’re going to graduate. You’ll turn around and suddenly the leaves will be turning yellow and you’ll think “This is the last time I’m going to see this here.” Then there’ll be homecoming and exams, and you’ll start noticing the little things that you never really cared about before.

He also said that he’s really torn and happy about leaving his friends behind, but he knows it’s going to have to happen to some of them. You’ll drift away from some during senior year, but near the end of the year, it’ll come back somehow. Even those people you hated/were annoyed with, you’ll start talking to them again and reminisce about the past.

As for after graduation… well. He guessed who you were right off the bat. I don’t know if that means that I talk about you guys too much or if you’re the only ones I talk about LOL. Anyways, he said that if you weren’t antisocial [which you’re not sort of-ish?], you’ll make friends. But you don’t need friends ‘cause you’ll be too busy swathed with sheets of music to keep you company P:

Jkjk he’s just a jealous boy who wishes he could play like you haha.

Mmmm….think about it maybe?